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Oct. 9th, 2005 08:48 am
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It's at times like this I wish I had a digital camera. I'll explain that in a minute, but first a little about my morning so far...

I'm not up at this time because I want to be. My !@#$ing neighbours went away for the weekend and were kind enough to not turn off the alarm. It beeped at me for at least 15 minutes. Then, after a brief interval, the high pitched beeping of a big rig backing up started. I gave up after a few minutes of wishing it would stop. I'm tired, but apparently, I'm not supposed to sleep anymore. :P

Last night at [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant and [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck's housewarming was much fun. I ate a bit too much junk and felt icky when I got home, but the conversation was good and a good deal of silliness was had, like [livejournal.com profile] angeliquewisdom's whipped cream. More on that, I shan't say. ;)

As for the digital camera, I went to Francine and asked her to do something with my hair. It matted underneath after a few hours and I was sick of pulling long curly hair out of everything. So she cut it. Short. I love the style because it makes me feel like a different person. And after quitting, change, even if it's just hair, feels like a step in the right direction for me.

Without a digital camera, I can't show those of you who didn't see it last night what a fabulous job Francine did with my nest of unruly locks. But I can tell you that my head feels lighter and freer and I'm a wee bit happier now that I have the new 'do.

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Jun. 18th, 2005 08:57 pm
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I feel better today. I dunno. I guess I just needed to get the ick out by letting others know that I was feeling bad.

Thank you to [livejournal.com profile] clawfoot, [livejournal.com profile] lovecraftienne, [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant, [livejournal.com profile] robertom for the kind words, and also to [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck and [livejournal.com profile] meowster for being on Messenger when I needed someone to be there. Damned near everything about this entire experience is a great big bowl of ass sucking cherry pits and being in limbo only emphasizes the bad bits.

So. Um. Yeah. Thanks and all that. :)

I'm so stressed out my eczema is coming back on my left pinkie. Just what I need. :P

And until the wee one is in hospital, no movies for us. Sorry about that, [livejournal.com profile] clawfoot. :( But if you want to stop by and hang out or something, that can happen. Just give us a call.

In other (and probably more important) news, Shannon rolled over for the first time yesterday. It seems like she's late, but if she's anything like my sister, she's doing things in her own sweet time. :)

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Jun. 5th, 2005 08:57 am
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[livejournal.com profile] fuzzpsych wants me to make him an icon. Not sure what I'm going to do yet, but I'll give it a think an see what kind of inspiration hits.

I am pleased, though, that both [livejournal.com profile] robertom and [livejournal.com profile] clawfoot got a kick out of the icons that I made and are actually using them. It's one thing to go "that's neat" and completely another to go through the bother of downloading. It's a nice ego boost and it makes me feel like preening, but I'll refrain and just say thanks. :)

[livejournal.com profile] joncanuck and [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant were over last night for a movie. Live action anime with none of the cartooniness lost or downgraded to something more serious and/or less appropriate. If you can find it, Cutey Honey is good for a laugh if nothing else and the ending makes a heck of a lot more sense than the one for Stacey: Attack of the Schoolgirl Zombies.

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May. 11th, 2005 10:37 pm
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For some reason I wasn't able to update last night...everytime I did a mouse-over on the dark blue bar just under the LJ logo, I got nada and I wasn't going to download a client just for the priviledge, so I didn't bother.

Completely Random Neat Thing but Unrelated to the Rest of the Post Update: My hoya is in bloom. I bought it at the symphony sale last year and I wasn't expecting flowers so soon. It's very fragrant and reminds me a little of home, since my mom had a ginormous one growing in the kitchen that would bloom on occasion.

Actual Update: The power was out for five hours today. Apparently, a transfer line at King and Northfield got taken out, leaving what was supposed to be only a few blocks on either side without power. Well, it was those few blocks and some pretty freaking big pockets (like all the way back to Weber and Erb). [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck popped by so I wouldn't die of boredom because I literally had nothing else to do.

The power's back (obviously), so now I can do computer stuff or read or watch television. Damn I miss electricity when it's not available to me.

I'm also trying to figure out why the only emotion I feel in its full spectrum is anger. It seems that everything I do turns to shit, that I can do nothing right and even small victories (like, for example, I read an entire novel yesterday. Okay, it was Terry Pratchett and not that difficult a read, but reading isn't something I do a lot of anymore) feel empty and hollow. So I feel like a disappointment (not on the public humiliation level that eventually gets laughed off and forgotten, but at the intimate level, where it sits like a scab to be picked at) to my nearest and dearest, and it gets translated into anger. Anger that I direct at the baby, my husband and the cats.

Nothing changes. I'm still in the same position treading water while everyone around me is getting on with their lives. And I'm stuck.

I had quite a large inheritance when my father died and I know I squandered a lot more of it than I should have, but I'm so tired of apologizing for to the universe for it. I'm sorry, okay? Just leave me alone.

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Apr. 14th, 2005 11:52 pm
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It was a good day today. Got up a little earlier than usual, so I could be washed and dressed and fed before a nice lady from the Ontario Ministry of Social Services (Assistance for Severe Disabilities) came over. Found out that for the next year, I'm going to be getting an extra $250/mo for the next year to cover expenses like parking and gas and food for hospital visits. With that, the EI and the Child Tax Benefit, I'm making about as much as I was talking to stupid people 5 days a week. This feels like such a great scam...I just wish I could continue on like this beyond when my MatLeave is up.

[livejournal.com profile] fuzzpsych was a silly monkey and went to bed later than usual last night. He kind of woke up when the Ministry person was over, and with the sporadic and constant whistle being blown outside, he couldn't go back to sleep. He asked me if I knew who was blowing the whistle so he could shove it where the sun didn't shine and the look on his face when I told him it was a cop directing traffic was damned near priceless!

A couple of days ago, I had to pick up some supplies before cleaning the bathroom (see previous post for the hilarity that ensued there), and a cop was directing traffic at the corner of Bridgeport and Weber so the Region guys could change over the traffic light junction box (which is what was done today). The cop asked if I wanted to cross. I said please and he stopped all the traffic. It was nice knowing that for once I wasn't going to get clipped by someone tearing around the corner not paying attention to the pedestrians.

I had to go uptown and get quarters and twine. Got the money from the machine and then had the teller change it from paper to metal. Had a streetdog. That was nice. Sitting on the little concrete retaining wall in the sun munching on something that will undoubtably give me cancer. But it just didn't matter. It was good and I enjoyed it.

Walked further down King than I usually do (I tend to get to Wordsworth and then turn around again) after seeing the lovely quartz sphere that [livejournal.com profile] shishain had with her at the hospital (hugs for you when you're not in such pain). The shop is called "Weather" and aside from being fairly small, it's full of lovely inexpensive shiny things. Oooo...I love shiny things. :) It has semiprecious stones in various settings and sizes and lots of silver, too. I spoiled myself and bought four pairs of studs, including a very lovely green amber pair.

[livejournal.com profile] joncanuck and [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant popped round tonight for a visit. I fed them homemade treats and they brought me a box of crack Girl Guide Cookies. *delightful shudder* It was good to see someone socially and have a conversation with other adults. :)

Well, it's late, the moon is starting to sink down towards the horizon and I should be in bed.
Thank you to all of those who had said that they would miss my posts and that I actually had something worth reading.

I wasn't boring, but just fucking bored. I felt uninteresting because I have spent the last little while living from tending to the baby to tending to the baby (feeding, diaper changes, cuddles, etc etc etc), going nowhere in particular (running out and picking up milk doesn't count as going somewhere) and doing nothing special. It was really starting to wear me down and I managed to convince myself that I was really a boring person with nothing of importance to say.

But the difference between boring and bored is something can be done about the bored, but the boring is ingrained and only really curable with shock treatment. Lots and lots of shock treatment...

So, I've been trying to find ways to be less bored, mostly so I don't go completely mad and convince myself that I really belong in Botswana living in a hut somewhere.

[livejournal.com profile] joncanuck and the ever-lovely [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant stopped by a couple of nights ago and hung out. It was truly what I needed. So thank you. :)

And the night before that, shock and amazement, Molly stopped by on her way home from school completely out of the blue! So now I'm playing an online Scrabble game against her and losing horribly. But that's what I figured would happen, so I'm just enjoying playing, because there's no point in getting upset. Soon, though, we should have her over for a game of Super Scrabble (twice the tiles, twice the board and quadruple scores!), just to reconnect.

I finally got around to doing some writing again last night. I hadn't looked at my latest novel since February! and it was time to pick up the thread again. I'm writing the end of it now, mostly because that's what I've been thinking about and if things are explained to the reader (and also to the writer..:P), then hopefully the other segments will come together a lot easier.

I found a house that was feasible for us to acquire. It's on Strange St, right at Park. It's small, and cute in a butt-ugly way, but financially within reach. You can look for yourselves here or here. I'm probably setting myself up to be crushed, but we really really have to move. And soon.

And I don't have to go back to therapy! Yay! I was finding that it really wasn't doing anything and since my life has gone back to a mostly even-keeled status, we're just wasting each other's time. I can call her, though, if I need to in future. So, I still have that as an option should I need it.

(EDIT: As an aside, for some reason, I prefer sex in the morning. Maybe because it's such an incredible way to kick start the day. But if I can get it in the afternoon, boy howdy! you'd better believe that I'll take it. And when it was offered earlier, how could I say no?)

So that is what you've been missing. It's still not terribly interesting, but since you want to read it, there it is...

rambly rambly

Apr. 3rd, 2005 11:07 am
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I'll post Rabbit Sabbath pictures soon. I have to go through the disc and pick out a few good ones. I will even do my best to make sure that I get at least one of the faboo mask from this year as well.

I should probably go shower and get dressed. Or something. I feel really slovenly today and the weather's not really inspiring me to aim for more. Losing an hour's worth of sleep isn't helping either.

Last night, though, was fun. Okay, it does take a while to complete a five person game of Trivial Pursuit, but hanging out with [livejournal.com profile] clawfoot, [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck, [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant along with my other half was needed.

No matter how much you love someone, you need to interact with others, or you'll go mad. Although, who can tell the difference with me? :P

Oh, and a point to note for Doctor Who fans in KW...local CBC listings point to the episode being aired at 8 on Tuesday not 7, on account of Coronation Street holding the 7 slot.

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Mar. 26th, 2005 06:02 pm
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Rabbit Sabbath was fun. We brought two more to the ceremony last night, so that meant that it was me, [livejournal.com profile] fuzzpsych, [livejournal.com profile] clawfoot, [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant, [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck, Robigus and Tabula Rasa. Tabula Rasa cried throughout the entire ceremony, including her baptism, but that was expected by [livejournal.com profile] hare_mengele and his lovely wife, so no worries there.

She was pretty freaked out, actually, so [livejournal.com profile] fuzzpsych spent the majority of the evening in another room keeping her calm. At least he got a piece of the Guinness Chocolate Cake that I made for the event.

I will post pictures of Tabula Rasa in her outfit when I get them. She was adorable. :)

And now onto the ranty bit...

Today, I was coming out of the local Tim Hortons with coffee and goodies when I noticed the old man who exited afer me go to his car. Now he was parked in the handicap space and I know that the asphalt gently slopes up towards the sidewalk leaving a very minimal (about 2 cm) lip between them. And old guy had to lean on the hood of his car so he could get to the driver's side door!

Okay, so correct me if I'm wrong, but if you need support (the arm of another person, a railing, etc) to go down a slope that a just-learned-to-walk toddler can manage, do you really think that you should be driving?
~hugs~ to [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck on his birthday!

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Jan. 8th, 2005 07:36 pm
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I haven't updated for a few days because I've had nothing to say.

Although seeing [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck and [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant was very good and very calming after a my in-laws stopped by in the afternoon. To be honest, the in-laws were fine, but my mother-in-law was wearing a gag-worthy amount of perfume. [livejournal.com profile] fuzzpsych didn't notice it, even though he's more sensitive to perfume than I am, which is strange considering how everytime she got near me I did my best to hide my discomfort.

Tomorrow more friends come over for a paperwork roleplaying session. After 7.5 years in one campaign with Taellin and Dulthgaeia, I'm no stranger to stupid amounts of paperwork. I have a feeling, though, this will be much more interactive and more relaxing despite any demands Tabula might make on me.
Well, I didn't get my birthday wish afterall. Damn. I've been looking forward to that drink for a long long time. Oh well. Not that I would have enjoyed the taste of alcohol yesterday, what with the cold and the aftertaste of Ricola and everything, but it would have been nice.

Otherwise, though, it was a good day yesterday. I ate WAY too much, thanks to my mom and [livejournal.com profile] clawfoot, and even got a huge boquet of yellow freesia from the Grays. I like getting flowers. It's also probably the only aspect of me that's really a girly girl.

Now I have half the money for that writer's conference in June (my mom is incredible, really. She even permanently loaned me her old sewing machine because mine is pooched), lots to read ("Shadowmarch" from my understanding and very patient husband and the first Lemony Snickett book from [livejournal.com profile] meowster) and gift certificates to squander delightfully on comics and a hair cut (from the exceedingly generous [livejournal.com profile] joncanuck and [livejournal.com profile] the_daily_rant who stuck them in a punishing card).

Friday night, I drank a little too much tea, but was in the company of friends, so having to get up at least six times to pee in the middle of the night was worth it. :) So thanks to all and sundry who made my very low-key "milestone" birthday worth celebrating, by making it all about me and not at all about the parasite.

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