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valkryor ([personal profile] valkryor) wrote2021-01-09 08:42 pm

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Feeling oddly melancholic tonight. Maybe not so much oddly, honestly. I'm missing my social life. I didn't have much of one, and most of it consists of killing things and taking their stuff, but it's mine, and I don't get to have it anymore because people fucking suck. I'm also bummed that my kid has virtual/distance school for the next two weeks.

We don't have a big place, and my kid has a big personality, and it's hard.

Yes, I know it's hard all over and yes, I know that people are struggling, but what I'm feeling is valid so...yeah.

I miss my friends, and I miss my beau, and I miss having a set amount of time alone every week. On the one hand, lockdown is great for introverts (a reason to not go outside and deal with people! Hurray!), and on the other, it only works when introverts get time to recharge. And I don't get nearly enough time to recharge. I feel like I've been running on fumes for far longer than the manufacture recommendations.

Tonight, I think I'm going to finish Network Effect by Martha Wells, the latest in the Murderbot Diaries. Murderbot is the antihero for these fucked up times, although it would probably try to convince you otherwise.