Some stuff that has happened:

- the last full week of January was full of appointments, including a trip to Sick Kids to meet with the Nephrology team and some testing for Declan to determine what's up with his kidneys and the cysts.

- when I went in to find out WTF was up with my knee (possible patellofemoral syndrome, which is only 'cured' by eight weeks of physio), got the results of my blood work. It came back normal. You should really see my surprise face on that one. *rolls eyes* The urine test did come back positive for protein (joy) but it's not enough to be worrying. At least it's an easy test to repeat.

- Declan had no protein in his urine and his blood work came back as normal. So there is that.

- having your knee x-rayed is weird. The positions you have to keep it in is very unnatural. The highlight of the entire process? Connecting with another mother who was there with her son. We both agreed that shame was something for other people, especially after you've had someone fondling your cervix with others watching. Yay, childbirth.

- tried to call my shiny new(ish) psychiatrist, since I'm running low on meds. Hahahahaha, no. Apparently, I had a consultancy appointment, and don't actually have a psychiatrist. Cue lots of swearing and gnashing of teeth. Fine, thinks I, it's back to the doc for my meds and make the appointment, which is for this Friday.

- my games continue to truck along. I am finding that Thorn's voice is nearly silent in my head, but Amy's has gotten very loud. You'll have your time to shine, darlin'. But it's not yet.

- I am currently bashing my head against getting a data recovery program to actually work. It's my fault that the information is lost, but it shouldn't be THIS hard to get it back. I am frustrated and about this close to pitching my computer off the roof.

- small victory: picked up Declan from school AND took out the recycling without falling on my ass. It's been raining since this afternoon and freezing, so not slipping and sliding is worth noting.

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Jan. 10th, 2017 11:43 am
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I had a physical this morning.

Oh joyous day!

I was poked and prodded and bled and even got to pee into a little cup. I am the luckiest person on the planet! I even get to go back on Friday to discuss my right knee which has been giving me problems on and off for about three decades. Yay.

My blood pressure is 120/80 (textbook normal, yo), my height is 175 cm and my weight is 160 kg. That last one hurts a little bit. The nurse practitioner brought up BMI, but that's about the least useful metric there is to measure someone's health.

I suspect my blood work and urine sample will come back normal (they always do), as will my pap smear. And if they don't, I will deal with it. Worrying that something might be wrong is only going to make me anxious and I really don't enjoy having an 800-lb hamster sitting on my chest, thankyouverymuch.
I slept really poorly last night. I woke up around 3 because I was overheating and tossed and turned until my alarm went off at 7, sleeping in fits and starts.

I'm tired, but at least I didn't suffer from insomnia so I can still function. Well, mostly function, at any rate.

Today needs coffee. *yawn*

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Oct. 19th, 2005 12:01 pm
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For the third night in a row, I've had trouble falling asleep. I'm bone tired, but sleep doesn't come for at least half an hour or more. What gets me about it is my brain has shut off for the night, but my body can't seem to follow suit. The only thing that exhaustion is doing is fueling the apathy. A good night's sleep should help, but I won't know for sure until I have one.

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Oct. 1st, 2005 12:16 pm
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I feel better today. That "going to hurl" feeling has been replaced by the "head stuffed with cotton wool" feeling. It's not much, but if I was still nauseous, I'd have to stay home and not go tonight.

I'm a little trepidatious about going to Toronto, but it's been two months, so hopefully that's enough time. When one person feels melancholy, the rest of the group becomes gloomy. I don't want anyone else to feel out of sorts because I do.

I should go and shower and eat something. Watching cartoons all morning has been fun, but my head hurts from sitting in front of the television for so long.

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Sep. 8th, 2005 04:26 pm
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I feel odd, like I haven't eaten anything. I'm light-headed and my hands are trembly and I feel very disassociated from my sense of self. But I have eaten twice already today and I'm trying to keep hydrated (I've had no more or less water than I did yesterday at this time), but I still feel woozy.

I was going to post pictures of two necklaces that I had made in the last couple of days, but I can't seem to access any of the hosting sites I use. Fuck. Maybe tomorrow. I think I should lie down on the couch or something and see if being horizontal for a while helps me feel better.

EDIT: While I was waiting for this to be posted, one of the sites decided to play nice so I can post those images. For the sake of your flist, I'm going to put them behind cuts.

Random Seed Beads )
Spider Necklace Remake )

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Aug. 5th, 2005 11:08 am
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I'm not sure what to feel anymore. I'm anxious to get back to doing something besides hanging around the house. I guess all that time in Toronto hanging around Sick Kids/my sister's really killed the vacation-like or unemployed feel of having no where to go and nothing to do. So, it's time to find work again. Not necessarily a bad thing...since it does mean that I'm focused on something else and not staring at the curtained area where the crib is and moping all day.

It's strange. Both [ profile] fuzzpsych and I feel a little bit guilty that we're not crying/mourning enough. But after six weeks of watching Shannon lay there like a warm meat-sack and being told numerous times that she wasn't going to make it, grieving (for me, at least) is old news. I cried so often by her bed crushed by the mere thought of losing her, afraid that it would end in Toronto. And it did. Now I have to move on.

It's not very eloquent or even very nice, but it's accurate. We have to move as soon as we can and both of us have to go back to some form of employment. And for me (at this moment, anyway), the sooner, the better.

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Jul. 28th, 2005 08:18 pm
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It's official. I now have a cankle. My feet have been pretty swollen this summer. Especially the right. And I've been stupidly wearing the sandals that I couldn't wear last year because of the swelling from pregnancy because they fit in the morning, but by the time we leave the hospital, my feet are watery puffballs and that leaves some serious indents in my feet. Well, the most obvious indents are now purple with broken blood vessels/bruises. It is so attractive. There's even a small bit starting on my left foot. Wee haw. At least I had the forsight to bring some other shoes with me. It'll be freaking hot wearing socks and sneakers the next couple of days, but I have to change footwear especially because where it is bruised and not just purple really fucking hurts.

Cankle. Meh.

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Jul. 23rd, 2005 12:35 am
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We went out to dinner with my sister, her boyfriend and her bf's brother. It was tasty, but my knee hurts.

[ profile] fuzzpsych and I decided to walk back from the hospital because it was a lovely summer day. When we got the the apartment, the other three were going out to dinner and invited us to tag along. So we took the dog and walked about 45 mins to the restaurant. Half-way there, I took a spill. I hit a patch of uneven sidewalk, went over on my ankle and skidded heavily on my other knee. To add insult to injury, my purse swung around and smacked me in the back of my head (didn't hurt, but, egad, was it embarrassing!). We kept walking and my ankle was fine, but my knee is still giving me some trouble.

I'm going to find some ice and make with the cold. Hopefully that helps.

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Jun. 25th, 2005 07:04 pm
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It's too fucking hot outside. Way way too hot. Advantage to this: I'm in an air-conditioned condo. Disadvantage: I still have to walk to Union to catch the subway. Today was like breathing soup. My asthma, which is non-existant most of the time, was kind enough to let me know that it's still around, only coming out when the weather conditions make it hard for non-asthmatics to breathe. And my feet are starting to swell again. I'm so fucking happy.

Today was quiet, otherwise. Shannon had a very stable day. They had to turn off the epinepherin (sp) because her blood pressure was too high, but since this is one of the goals that they want to work towards, it's not a bad thing. She's still really swollen, and on Monday, I'm going to ask when they're going to start her on diuretics to handle that...unless they're going to wait until they close up her chest after making sure they don't have to open it again.

The bottom line: She's going to be in Critical Care for a long time yet, probably another week or two. Which means we'll be in Toronto for at least another two weeks and maybe as long as four. Great. Just what I always wanted. :P

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Jun. 18th, 2005 08:57 pm
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I feel better today. I dunno. I guess I just needed to get the ick out by letting others know that I was feeling bad.

Thank you to [ profile] clawfoot, [ profile] lovecraftienne, [ profile] the_daily_rant, [ profile] robertom for the kind words, and also to [ profile] joncanuck and [ profile] meowster for being on Messenger when I needed someone to be there. Damned near everything about this entire experience is a great big bowl of ass sucking cherry pits and being in limbo only emphasizes the bad bits.

So. Um. Yeah. Thanks and all that. :)

I'm so stressed out my eczema is coming back on my left pinkie. Just what I need. :P

And until the wee one is in hospital, no movies for us. Sorry about that, [ profile] clawfoot. :( But if you want to stop by and hang out or something, that can happen. Just give us a call.

In other (and probably more important) news, Shannon rolled over for the first time yesterday. It seems like she's late, but if she's anything like my sister, she's doing things in her own sweet time. :)

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Jun. 10th, 2005 10:52 am
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My feet are now really swollen. Craptastic.

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Jun. 9th, 2005 10:22 am
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I cleaned the kitchen last night. It's not spotless, but it's a damn sight better than it was (the top of the refrigerator is no longer grey and fuzzy!). It needed doing, but now I have the impetus to do so. [ profile] clawfoot is going to be house sitting while we're in Toronto, and even though she's seen the kitchen at its worst (when I was painting it one July...ugh!), that's still no excuse. It was becoming an embarrassment to me, even if no one else noticed.

Part of the process involved cleaning the grey film off of the liquor bottles. At least now you don't need gloves to touch one. Some of them were pretty disgusting. And I also cleaned out the toaster. The crumb tray was only part of it. After I removed that and emptied it, I gave the toaster a shake. By the end, I had a nice pile of crumbs (three times what was in the crumb tray) on the counter. I must remember to do that more often.

I also did something last night that I thought I'd never ever do. Many years ago (ten, eleven?), a bottle filled with red-brown liquid was given to me by Michelle. It was stoppered and sealed with wax. She said it was Neil Gaiman's blood and while I knew that it wasn't, it was still a prized possession. Last night, I emptied the bottle, cleaned off the wax and threw away the cork. When I was doing it, it felt good, but now the empty bottle just seems so sad. I think I'll have to find something else to fill it with, but what, I don't know.

My feet are swollen again. It was a constant when I was pregnant (and it got pretty bad), but last night I noticed that my feet felt odd when I was in the midst of cleaning. When I looked down, my ankles had disappeared and the tops of my feet were jiggly. I drank some water, and that helped, but I'm not impressed. Gah! The heat and humidity can stop now. I'm done, thank you very much.

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Apr. 27th, 2005 05:17 pm
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Today was...

Well, it just was. First was the follow up visit at GRH with the pediactrician. Then it was bloodwork...20 minutes for supposedly trained people to figure out that a toe poke is the most effective way to get that blood. Twenty minutes of Shannon screaming until she's retching, because she doesn't like it at all, especially when she's already had a needle in her arm and then in her foot without a good venal draw. Yes, folks. That's incompetence at it's finest.

After that, it was off to Guelph to fix the inlaws computer. Last weekend, we were there on Saturday, getting them off dial up and set up with a DSL Basic Lite connection. Monday, a call comes from my father-in-law that the system's buggered already! Turns out he was looking for a game that he used to play and ended up clicking on a popup on a site that he shouldn't have been on.

Stupid spyware.

It took AdAware and SpySweeper to get rid of the malware and set things back to right. I found the proper site with that game for him in less than a minute and bookmarked it so he wouldn't have to look for it again. I also made sure that all of the game sites bookmarked worked and were clean sites. I don't want to have to do that again.

And I really really love the rootbeer flavoured Bottle Caps. They made today a little better.

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Apr. 24th, 2005 08:34 am
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I woke up this morning a little stiff and sore (I need adjusting. Tuesday. Tuesday I see my chiropractor. She'll make everything all better). It's a little hard, with the position of the bed, to not look out the windows when I get up in the morning. I wasn't expecting what I did see. Snow?!? At the end of April?!?

So my first words the morning were a very suitable "What the Fuck?"

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Apr. 1st, 2005 09:12 am
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Yesterday, for the first time in a long time, I felt alive.

The weather was gorgeous (and it looks like another close repeat), and I was out and about in sandals (!), breathing in the smell of earth and feeling more than I was just existing or getting by.

It was a good day for me, but not that much for [ profile] fuzzpsych, who is coming down with a nasty cold. So one of my outings was a trip for medication and the ingredients for chicken and rice soup (which was a tasty dinner last night).

And now that I'm paying more attention to my level of physical exercise, why is it when I think to myself "today, I'm going to be a sloth", I end up getting more exercise than usual?

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Mar. 6th, 2005 09:52 am
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Is there anything more joyous than cleaning up projectile vomit?

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Jan. 9th, 2005 12:08 pm
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For the first time in nearly a year, I started menstruating a few days ago. Instead of cramps, my misery has manifested itself in headaches.

Go me. :(

No wait. I was mistaken. I get the pleasure of both cramps and headaches today.

Going to take some tylenol and drink something hot and caffeinated to make it work more effectively.

And if my fucktard neighbours keep playing Counting Crows at the volume that they were a few moments ago, somebody's going to die.

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Jan. 8th, 2005 07:36 pm
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I haven't updated for a few days because I've had nothing to say.

Although seeing [ profile] joncanuck and [ profile] the_daily_rant was very good and very calming after a my in-laws stopped by in the afternoon. To be honest, the in-laws were fine, but my mother-in-law was wearing a gag-worthy amount of perfume. [ profile] fuzzpsych didn't notice it, even though he's more sensitive to perfume than I am, which is strange considering how everytime she got near me I did my best to hide my discomfort.

Tomorrow more friends come over for a paperwork roleplaying session. After 7.5 years in one campaign with Taellin and Dulthgaeia, I'm no stranger to stupid amounts of paperwork. I have a feeling, though, this will be much more interactive and more relaxing despite any demands Tabula might make on me.

I miss sleep.

Jan. 5th, 2005 12:02 pm
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For someone who always thought she didn't have delicate sleeping patterns, I have some pretty fucking delicate sleeping patterns.

I woke up with a headache again this morning. The cause? The wrong kind of sleep. Sounds odd, but I've experienced it before I became pregnant. The only difference this time is the headache is a lot more intense and doesn't dissipate after an hour or so.

And waking up with a headache ruins your entire day.

What I should be doing is taking that 6 hours of sleep at night gratefully and snagging an hour or two in the afternoon. What I should not do is get that six hours, then go back to bed when I'm mostly awake (even though I'm still tired and need another hour or two). That extra time in bed is a guarantee of a throbbing skull when I finally decide it's time to face the world.

The topper to all of this? I'm still exhausted and crawling back into bed is a reasonable choice right now. Don't want to, though. Don't want to make the pounding worse. Today, it seems, I can't win.

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