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Jan. 21st, 2026 04:21 pm
valkryor: (Beatings)
I am supposed to be waiting for my kid whilst he's at a speech language appointment right now. Instead, I am sitting in front of my laptop, *this close* to tears.

Last week, I was told that the SLP needs to see the boy in person, as there are some sounds she's not certain he's making correctly over Zoom. And I get it, I do; technology can only take you so far, and there's always going to be a level of interference that is not present in person. Fine, thinks I, I can make this work. Bussing in, my usual mode of transport, is no bueno, as it's at least an hour one way with too much waiting time when the weather is this shitty. Since I can get reimbursed for transport, I opt for a cab.

Call the cab company 45 minutes before the appointment, figuring that it will be MORE than enough time between the wait for the car and the drive there to make it, even when the roads are less than great (as they are now). After 35 minutes of waiting, and already knowing that the drive is going to be longer than usual, I call the cab company and cancel the ride, not one minute before the cab arrives, far too late to be of any use to us.

I did everything right and still managed to fuck everything up.

I emailed the SLP and completely expect to be charged for the appointment as a late cancellation. It's only fair. So now I'm going to go get my coffee made and try to warm up and not feel so fucking useless at life.
Usually, one reckons a week going from Sunday to Saturday, or even Monday to Sunday. Mine is going from Tuesday last week to today. And it's been a week, I tell you what.

On Tuesday, we all got double-jabbed for fluVID after the kiddo got home from school. Not unusual, but it's good that it's done and I can now relax a little bit regarding whatever respiratory silliness that's going around.

Wednesday morning started with a message from one of the jobs I had applied to, asking if was available to interview by phone the next day. Why yes, yes I was available, thanks for asking. That squared away, I took it easy for the rest of the day because my arm was aching like someone had used it for bare-knuckle boxing practice. I also decided that today was the day to make the switch from Windows to Linux for so many reasons. So many.

The phone interview on Thursday was... meh. It wasn't stellar, wasn't horrid, just there. There was a bit of an accent barrier, and Beans was chewing on my toes because he could. It was exceedingly distracting and I was certain that would be the end of that. (This is fine, because whilst I am looking, I'm also realistic enough to know that a sixteen year gap is a LOT for most companies to take the risk.)

Friday, a call came in from the company, asking me to come in on Monday for an in-person interview. I'm flummoxed, but agree as one of us needs to work if we want to continue our lifestyle of paying rent and eating food whilst living paycheque-to-paycheque.

At it as also Hallowe'en and D was uninterested in going out and scoring candy, I made cheeseburgers for dinner, and we had waffles and a thematically appropriate ice cream for dessert. We deemed Declan old enough and watched The Thing as we ate. When that was over, I showed them the Honest Trailer of the same. All-in-all, it was a good evening.

Saturday, I gamed with my D&D group. We were online due to circumstances outside of our control. This is where I discovered that while the switch between operating systems was fairly painless in most respects, Discord was being a little brat and needed a lot of finessing. We limped along with substandard play until after lunch. My kid, who had made the switch months ago, told me what he did to make Discord behave. I did the same during the lunch break and voila! Success without college. The rest of the game continued as it usual did.

Yesterday was quiet. The only thing of note was a fit-check on my good clothes, in case I needed to make an emergency purchase. I have not needed event appropriate clothes in over a decade, so I was delighted to discover that they fit well-enough to be serviceable. I also read a charming romance that made me cry. It even started with a meet-cute over body bags. It's lovely and warm with an animator and a mortician figuring out how they fit together for their HEA.

Today.

Today, for the first time in almost two decades, I had an honest-to-goodness grown-up job interview. Yes, I was nervous, but I don't think I made too much of an ass of myself. One of the interviewers was impressed that not only was "First Contact Resolution" on my resume, but I also know what it means. I think I made a good impression? I have a lot of tech experience/expertise, and I'm used to monotonous work, so who the fuck knows? I certainly do not. I lost the ability to tell if it went well forever ago. :P

Instead of stressing, I came home and baked a cake, which seemed a better use of my time.

This week has been a bit of a whirlwind and I'm tired. I'm going to go check on my dinner and get ready to eat, complete with gingerbread for dessert.
January is almost over. Another day and a half (or thereabouts) and it will be over. Yay.

So, some updates:
  • Sheldon - We had to take him back to the vet for more testing at the beginning of the month because the anti-nausea shot had worn off and he had started puking two or three times a day again. This time, it was blood work and urinalysis. I declined the abdominal ultrasound; he is old and it's expensive. We got some anti-nausea pills that day and then some painkillers the next day. In the end, between two vet visits and another scrip of PukesBeGone, I've spent about $1100. And for what? A flare up of pancreatitis. He has an upset tumtum, and I have a massive vet bill. UGH. (Yes, I know it's more than that, but the end result - too much puking - is the same.)
  • The kid is in exam week, but has no final exams. Because of the weather, exams have been postponed by two days, so the new term doesn't start until Wednesday of next week. The only good thing about this is that I won't have to get him out of school for his next orthodontic appointment.
  • Depression is kicking my ass. Often, this is a symptom of my meds not working as efficiently as they should. Because of a recent upping of the dosage last year having the required effect (quelling the hot flash anxiety spikes), and me able to do stuff, my guess is it's a reaction to everything else. As much as I like to know what's happening in the world around me, I don't think it's doing my mental health any favours. Time for a news diet, I think. And more Bob Ross. Happy little trees and happy accidents, here I come.
  • The microwave overheated last night when I was getting dinner sorted. This...does not fill me with joy. I unplugged it, cleaned the inside, wiped down the outside, and gave the cubby it sits in a once over. The cubby was the worst of it, which is impressive, considering how disgusting the insides of microwaves can get. Anyhoodle, plugged it into a plug that's on its own breaker, and it turned back on again. So yay? I put everything back, but declined to plug it in again. I have a healthy amount of paranoia regarding kitchen appliances spontaneously setting themselves on fire. If I need it, I will plug it in. If I do not, then it can stay unplugged.
  • I am still reading and writing. See above regarding depression for why everything is stalled or meh. The same is true of my crochet and knitting projects. Thanks brain, I hate it.
  • For those who don't follow the news, it has been confirmed, in stomach churning detail, what a massive dirt bag Neil Gaiman is. I was gutted and continue to be gutted, and now I have to figure out what I'm going to do with the MASSIVE AMOUNT OF BOOKS, COMICS, MOVIES, AND OTHER EPHEMERA that I've collected over the years. I know I won't be able to enjoy any of it until he's dead and buried, and so much of it was formative and meant so much to my younger self. I have two small shelves on a narrow bookcase jammed packed with my physical TBR pile. I think tomorrow I'm going to unpack it, dust the shelves, and pack as much Gaiman stuff as I can on them and move my TBR somewhere else. If I have to cover them so I don't have to look at his name on the spines, I have more than enough fabric for the job. I just don't feel good knowing that it's visible, you know?

    Putting this behind a cut because it's menstrual TMI. )

    Okay. That's enough rambling. My lunch is ready (a Greek style omelette - eggs, fries, cheese - that I first had on Crete *mumblesomething* years ago) and I'm hungry.
  • Bits

    Dec. 4th, 2024 07:58 am
    valkryor: (Pathetic Graffiti)
    Some things:

    - Declan came home with his most recent math test, and got 100%. Can I mention how incredibly fucking proud I am of him? Because I am.

    - Bored of my usual Christmas decorations and having zero monies, I went through my stash of beading supplies and got creative. Then, when I was setting up the tree, I went through my fabric stash to find something to cover the red clay pot I use as a stand and the burlap around the bottom of the tree. Free is my favourite price and the result is endearing.



    - I was pilling the cat this morning and fumbled the capsule. Into his mouth. I thought it had gone somewhere when I noticed him swallowing it down. Score one for me today.

    My apartment is decorated, my kid is home today (blended learning day, which is a mix of synchronous and asynchronous learning), and I am *le tired*. I have things to do (the laundry waits for no one) and maybe some baking later, and that's enough for today.

    Fledgling Boy

    Sep. 4th, 2024 07:57 am
    valkryor: (Pathetic Graffiti)
    My kid just walked out the door to his very first day of high school. My baby is growing up, whether I want him to or no. I'm not sad or morose or melancholic. Nostalgic, maybe? Hopeful? I'm feeling some kind of way, at any rate.

    I hope it's a good day for him, because high school is a crucible and the students can be dickweasels and douchecanoes.
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  • My kid turns 14 next week and starts highschool in September. Sweet baby Christ in a minivan, where did the time go?

  • In April (I think, it might have been May because my memory is hot garbage), I found something that all women dread finding: a lump in my breast. Because my doc runs a walk-in clinic for his patients on the weekends, I tried to go the following Sunday. I got there early, but not early enough to be seen. Frustrated and freaking out, I had to book an in-patient appointment (and made it for multiple issues for my convenience). I had the lump confirmed, got a requisition for a mammogram/ultrasound, booked that appointment, had that appointment, then had to text for the results which I got in a phone call a few hours later.

    I have a lump, yes, but one of the mostly benign kind (the risk of the lump being cancerous is teeny tiny, but it is NOT ZERO). Fibroadrenoma is a mass of tissue that happens most often between the ages of 15 and 35, but can show up whenever. I have to have another ultrasound in six months to make sure that the lump is stable (as in, NOT GROWING because that would be Very Very Bad, M'Kay) and that's it.

  • For the kid's upcoming birthday, I got him RAM for his lappytop, taking him from a paltry 8GB to a whopping 32GB, the max his machine can handle. So now I have this 8GB stick of RAM kicking around that I figured I had no use for. EXCEPT my very own beloved beastie uses the same type (DDR4) AND has 8GB. So it looks like I'm getting an upgrade, too! Huzzah!
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    Mar. 12th, 2024 05:51 pm
    valkryor: (Default)
    My kid had yet another dental surgery. This time, it's to try and pull down his front teeth, which are reluctant to descend. His prior dental surgery was to remove the extra teeth, so here's hoping that this is it for dental surgeries for him for a good long time. Or, at least, until I'm no longer paying for it. (I think I'm still paying off the last one.)

    There is a chance that this won't work, and his front teeth will never come down. If that's the case, then we look into other options and go from there. BUT, I'm guessing it's a small chance, and there's no use worrying about it.

    I expected him to be groggier or at least less...bouncy today, but he seems to be mostly fine. I was supposed to give him pain meds, but he doesn't want them. Considering my own mother can have friggen root canals without freezing, I wonder if that dental-pain-is-for-other-people has skipped a generation (ie. me). I kind of hope so, because I am NOT A FAN of tooth pain and become the most giant baby when it happens.
    My kid came home from school today soaked and carrying his shoes (they go to and from the school in his bag), his coat askew, his backpack gaping open.

    Why?

    Zippers.

    Zipper malfunctions all the way down.

    First, I fixed his bag. I tried to do it the easy way (ripping the seam at the bottom of the relevant side, pulling out the ends of the zipper tape, replacing the slider, stitching it closed), and soon discovered that the zipper slider was starting to disintegrate. Since the main pocket has two sliders and the other looked okay, I pulled that one off and closed it up and considered it good enough for now. I might need to replace the zipper in the future, but I have a number that I've pulled from my old packs over the years, so that's not going to be an issue.

    His coat, though. UGH. I had already fixed it, so no shit, there I was, fixing it AGAIN. Except my fix wasn't going to work, because the slider broke into two pieces and that was that. Had this happened last week, I would have put off the work until tomorrow, when there's daylight and it's easier to see what the fuck I'm doing. BUT, it's cold and the weather is going to get colder and damn it.

    I had two zipper candidates in my stash: a gray one that was the perfect length and a black one that was about 5cm shorter than the zipper in the coat. Not egregious by any stretch of the imagination, and not the first time I've put in a zipper that was a bit short. The winner? The black zipper. Why? It wasn't a two-way separable (you know, two sliders so you can unzip it from the bottom to access the inside of the garment without undoing the zipper), which was the commercial zipper put in when it was made and it has caused nothing but headaches.

    So.

    I fixed his coat, because that's the cheaper/easier option for me. My hand, though, it fucking hates me (I think I'm developing arthritis at the base of my thumb on my right hand - good times), because I made it pinch and hold and pin and do all of that other fine motor control necessary for sewing. It's one of the reasons I've made myself some tea, so I can wrap my hand around the mug and use the heat to ease some of the ache. (The other reason is I just want a cup of tea.)

    Is it the best zipper replacement I've ever done? Oh hell no. Replacing zippers is one of the things that I do not enjoy doing. I do it because people pay me to fix their winter coats and sometimes it's necessary. I'm always happy when it's done, though, so there is that. And yeah, not my best work but that's okay. For an emergency replacement that would not wait for a day or two? It's good enough and most people won't even notice that the stitching is wonky in places or that the zipper isn't quite the right length. It will outlast the kid's use of the coat, which suits me fine.

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    Dec. 12th, 2023 11:44 am
    valkryor: (Beatings)
    I was finishing Paladin's Faith last night, literally at the last 10 pages or so (according to my ereader) and I had to put it down and deal with an incident. At 11:30 pm.

    Declan had, by his own admission, an "oopsie".

    It was a lot of vomit. And because I don't know why there was a fountain of spew in his bed (he spent the night on the couch), he gets to stay home today. If it was crazy random happenstance, I'm being paranoid, but if it's a virus or food poisoning? Incident repeatability. Keeping him home just makes sense in that case.

    So my day involves laundry. I did that yesterday, but that's the joy of parenting, I guess.

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    Aug. 28th, 2023 08:59 am
    valkryor: (Default)
    I have a teenager living in the house. Yesterday, we had his party in the park (as is usual AND was at his request). The weather was pretty much perfect, although the wasps were frightful. Holy hells, there were a LOT. I made a very effective wasp trap from a discarded water bottle (that yes, I pulled from the trash can - I have no shame) and it made a difference.

    The party was well-attended, and he had a good time. He also got a new scooter from his aunt and uncle, an adult upgrade to the one he was using. It has a weight rating of 100kg. He should be able to use it for a good long while, which is awesome.

    Today, I have no plans outside of thoroughly cleaning the litter boxes. It's gotten to the point that they smell like they need scooping right after they've been scooped. It's pretty friggen gnarly and as much as I don't want to haul them down to the laundry room to apply soap and water, I need to. At least I have gloves.

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    Apr. 7th, 2023 05:59 pm
    valkryor: (Beatings)
    It's now Easter weekend. We aren't going to see family this weekend, as I have no idea what my in-laws want (they haven't said, and I don't care to ask, then again, nor has their son, so there is that), and we're going to my mom's next weekend. And all of that is fine by me.

    What is NOT fine by me is the refusal of my mother-in-law to show my kid some basic fucking respect.

    One of my kid's autistic quirks is that he won't eat anything with a face. So, no giant lollipops wrapped in plastic with a printed face on the wrapper, no gummy eyes at Hallowe'en, and no chocolate Easter bunnies. He's been like this for, oh, TWELVE YEARS NOW. It's not a secret, he's not doing it for attention or to make anyone upset. It bothers him to have treats with faces, so we go through his Hallowe'en candy after Trick-or-Treating, asking him what he can and cannot eat. It's not hard. It's really not.

    My mom, as an example, gives him Doritos and blueberries instead of chocolate. My MIL? Jesus Fucking Christ on a Crutch, that woman.

    Here's a text exchange between the spouse and his mum (the numbers are a reference to Wordle):

    MIL: But I'm doing better at the scrabble games. Took me 6 again today. Have a bunny here for Declan when we see him
    Paul: 4 for me. And Declan won't eat anything with a face
    MIL: So cut the head off
    (Paul has yet to respond.)

    I DON'T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE.

    And yes, she's old. And yes, she's forgotten that my kid is autistic. But the number of times we've had to tell her that Declan won't eat anything with a face? I HAVE LOST COUNT.

    I'm so angry over this. This is not okay, nor is telling my kid that nanny is old and doesn't know any better. His grandma, my mom, is also old, AND DOES KNOW BETTER. I hate watching my kid get served a shit sandwich with the expectation that he be grateful. Should he ever decide that he doesn't want to deal with it anymore and not see them, then I will support his choice.

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    Nov. 30th, 2022 07:31 am
    valkryor: (Beatings)
    Sick. Again.

    It started last night, and while I feel okayish now, it's only going to get worse from here. More than a little annoyed that I have to move the vascular surgeon appointment I finally got, but I doubt very much they are going to want to see me when I'm feeling like this. And yes, I'm salty about it, but for good reason, since I started this process a YEAR AGO and being a responsible adult sucks.

    Also, my kid is coughing a lot this morning, so whatever he had over the weekend has possibly come back in full force. Going to send him, unless something happens between now and he has to leave. At least he has winter boots now.

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    Sep. 20th, 2022 07:17 am
    valkryor: (Default)
    On the bad news front, I am still sick. On the good news front, it's not COVID. I tested myself yesterday and the control line was the ONLY line. It was so well defined, it looked like an emphatic no to me. There's nothing novel about this coronavirus, I guess. At least the brain fog seems to have lifted, although now I'm coughing. Ugh.

    I kept Declan home yesterday in an abundance of caution, but he needs to go to school, for both of our sakes. I am sending him in wearing a mask today, though, to help protect his classmates a little bit.

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    Sep. 17th, 2022 02:18 pm
    valkryor: (Default)
    I kept the kid home yesterday because he was rather sneezy. About ninety minutes later, he yarked, so good call on my part. Today, he's even sneezier and I seem to be coming down with it, too. I did test myself for COVID and it came back negative. No idea if I have enough antibodies or nah to trigger the reaction or if I even have the plague, but I do intend to test the kid either before he goes to bed tomorrow night OR Monday morning to double check.

    And, of course, with the kid home, my ability to get shit done has been squashed. I have gotten some sewing done, did some needed cleaning, and even read an entire book this week (Nona the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir). Oh, and I've been writing, too, but that has slowed down some this week.

    New glasses were ready Thursday and damn, do I love not having to fight my frames to see.

    Today, I think there might be a nap in my future. Or not. Nothing strenuous, at any rate.

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    Sep. 6th, 2022 09:54 am
    valkryor: (Pathetic Graffiti)
    My tiny boy is no longer tiny. I have a pre-teen who is now going into grade seven. He needs to bus, which is a change, and the school day starts earlier, so we've adjusted our morning routine back an hour from last year, another change. I gave him the option of wearing a mask this morning because I want him to have a sense of bodily autonomy.

    He declined.

    I did tell him that there are masks in his backpack if he changes his mind. I can only do so much and insisting that he wears one doesn't benefit either of us.

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    Aug. 31st, 2022 02:40 pm
    valkryor: (Beatings)
    I'm fighting a serious case of the Don't Wannas. I don't wanna do the household laundry (one measly load). I don't wanna make cookies. DO NOT WANT.

    So, no shit, there I was...

    Laundry is done and needs folding/putting away. Cherry chocolate chip oatmeal cookies are baking in batches. I still need to make dinner, even though I really don't wanna.

    Living with the wrong prescription continues and I'm done. I'm limited in what I can and cannot do without squinting. Using my laptop and writing? Fine. Reading? Sure. Hand sewing? Since I take my glasses off to do this anyway, this is always a yes.

    Not being able to see clearly is turning into a giant ball of frustration that I can't do much about except wait. Okay, I can call the optician, but if he's waiting on an answer, then I'm still waiting. *grump*

    I now have a twelve year old. His party was on Sunday and it went off without a hitch. Well, mostly without a hitch. The weather was fantastic, we found a spot in the shade, his friends came (this is important, as he has only *just* found his tribe), and the park wasn't stupidly busy (although parking was a Beast).

    This was the very first birthday party I had been to in my entire life where someone lost a pair of underpants, though. Yes, it was my kid. And yes, he is potato. He was coming back from changing in the bathroom and they got dropped. Before we left, I sent him to walk back to the building to see if they were still there, but nope. So I went to go pee and, and as I was coming back, noticed something weird near the playground. Since I can't see for shit, I got closer.

    And found his underpants.

    The boy must have initially walked back a different way the first time, and didn't retrace his steps the second. We found them, that's what's important and my child? Is Potato. I love him, but oy.

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    Jul. 9th, 2022 08:16 am
    valkryor: (Pathetic Graffiti)
    Yesterday was something.

    As one of the millions of customers without a single way to communicate with the world, it was... I can't even adequately describe it. The kid sulked most of the day, because he couldn't go online or play some of the games he had planned on playing or watch YouTube until his eyes fell out.

    Me? I got to see someone I'd not seen in damn near ten years and we just hung out and shot the shit for hours. He ended up being late for another meetup but didn't seem all that upset about it. His is one of the few friendships I have where we can just pick up where we left off. It's nice to have that, as he lives a good seven hours away and we text super sporadically.

    Mixed bag? I guess that's the best descriptor for yesterday.

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    May. 28th, 2022 10:37 am
    valkryor: (Beatings)
    So.

    First Declan was sick.

    Then I caught it a few days later.

    Now Paul has come down with it.

    Yay.

    (On a better news front, Declan's over it, and I'm at the tail end of whatever this nonsense was. It was pretty short-lived, so that's something.)

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    May. 24th, 2022 08:00 am
    valkryor: (Default)
    My kid is home sick again today. The plague? A basic cold? Allergies? No idea, but as he started coughing this morning, it seemed prudent to just keep him home instead of sending him to school and then having him sent home.

    Also, can I say that I'm done with my kid catching every damn virus? This is the third time since March Break, which is a LOT. Yes, he wears a mask, and yet that doesn't seem to make any difference. *le sigh*

    I guess this gives me some incentive to clean the bathroom? Or not, I don't fucking know anymore.
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  • Declan's been sick this week. Again. I tested him using a rapid test and it came back negative, but that doesn't mean much of anything. Wednesday, there was more life in a wet dishrag than there was in my kid. He's been bouncing back, but isn't anywhere near school-healthy as of yet. His appetite has somewhat returned, so that's a relief.
  • On Tuesday, we went out thrifting. Shocking no one, I bought yarn, BUT I also found a couple of things that I had been looking for first try. I found a new cotton blanket for our bed (ours was quite old and was starting to disintegrate) as well as a nice bedspread. Laundry happened, and the blanket went onto the bed, and the bedspread got a little adjusting into a new futon cover. My only complaint is that it is a crumb-magnet, but I suspect that it's also a naptrap and I'm okay with that trade off.

  • Pilling the cat is an ADVENTURE. I think I have to cut Sunny's claws again, since I'm starting to wear his protestations on my hand. It's getting easier, though slow going.
  • I made another blanket, all from thrifted yarn. It's hideous and I love it. It still needs finishing (ends woven in, blocked) and I will post pictures when that's done.
  • Compression socks still suck. They bunch in the same spot, the dip between my ankle and shin, and I am not impressed. *grumble*
  • I had a mammogram yesterday. I know it's important and all that and yes, I'm grateful that I can get the requisition, book an appointment and go, with no cost to myself. And yet. There is a certain amount of indignity and discomfort that goes with it. So no, I do not like them, but I like cancer even less, so there's that.
  • Periods suck. Can I be done with them now?
  • I'm still trying to make a dent in my physical TBR. It's slow going, but it's going. Reading hasn't been a thing for me lately, my head just isn't in it. Maybe today I will have some time to just sit and read and rest.
  • My life is pretty fucking boring. I need to get outside more, but it's so easy to stay in and hermit. Thanks inertia!
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