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valkryorI am supposed to be waiting for my kid whilst he's at a speech language appointment right now. Instead, I am sitting in front of my laptop, *this close* to tears.
Last week, I was told that the SLP needs to see the boy in person, as there are some sounds she's not certain he's making correctly over Zoom. And I get it, I do; technology can only take you so far, and there's always going to be a level of interference that is not present in person. Fine, thinks I, I can make this work. Bussing in, my usual mode of transport, is no bueno, as it's at least an hour one way with too much waiting time when the weather is this shitty. Since I can get reimbursed for transport, I opt for a cab.
Call the cab company 45 minutes before the appointment, figuring that it will be MORE than enough time between the wait for the car and the drive there to make it, even when the roads are less than great (as they are now). After 35 minutes of waiting, and already knowing that the drive is going to be longer than usual, I call the cab company and cancel the ride, not one minute before the cab arrives, far too late to be of any use to us.
I did everything right and still managed to fuck everything up.
I emailed the SLP and completely expect to be charged for the appointment as a late cancellation. It's only fair. So now I'm going to go get my coffee made and try to warm up and not feel so fucking useless at life.
Last week, I was told that the SLP needs to see the boy in person, as there are some sounds she's not certain he's making correctly over Zoom. And I get it, I do; technology can only take you so far, and there's always going to be a level of interference that is not present in person. Fine, thinks I, I can make this work. Bussing in, my usual mode of transport, is no bueno, as it's at least an hour one way with too much waiting time when the weather is this shitty. Since I can get reimbursed for transport, I opt for a cab.
Call the cab company 45 minutes before the appointment, figuring that it will be MORE than enough time between the wait for the car and the drive there to make it, even when the roads are less than great (as they are now). After 35 minutes of waiting, and already knowing that the drive is going to be longer than usual, I call the cab company and cancel the ride, not one minute before the cab arrives, far too late to be of any use to us.
I did everything right and still managed to fuck everything up.
I emailed the SLP and completely expect to be charged for the appointment as a late cancellation. It's only fair. So now I'm going to go get my coffee made and try to warm up and not feel so fucking useless at life.
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Date: 2026-01-23 12:39 am (UTC)It is not your failure, it's just how this insanity goes sometimes. You tried your best! And I hope your coffee was a warm comfort.
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Date: 2026-01-23 02:34 pm (UTC)At least I had coffee after, and yesterday there was some morning sun, so that helped, too. Oh, and I put some words down on a page. First time in MONTHS. It wasn't many words, but I'm still proud of them.