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We finished a nearly ten hour gaming session using a couple of online tools because of COVID-19. Four combats is a lot, and hey! We did the thing! Go us! When the session ended though, I don't know if I crashed or what, but I am deeply and profoundly unhappy.
I... I don't get out much. When Declan is home from school for extended periods of time (like in the summer or even March break), the only time I get a break from him (and parenting) is when I go out gaming. Sure, I was gaming today, but I didn't go out to do it.
It meant, of course, that he was hanging around the small space I had carved out for myself to do this today, making comments and just generally being an interested kid. I don't fault him for wanting to be included, but it does make it a lot harder for me to get that separation between Gamer and Parent. (Paul was little to no help, focusing on this music tagging project that he's now stuck in because taking the kid outside to the park was a bit beyond his capabilities or some shit.)
I don't have a lot of places that I can access a plug for the laptop AND the internet here. I think I've found all of two. I can't go anywhere there is a plug and the internet and PRIVACY. Or, at least, a door that I can partially shut to get the illusion of privacy. The best I can manage is rearranging furniture and getting set up where I do my sewing. At least it's near a window? *pathetic shrug*
I don't think this is tenable for me, but I also don't want to disappoint or upset anyone because I can't suck it up. I have a week to try to figure something else out. Somehow, I don't feel like I'm going to be terribly successful.
I... I don't get out much. When Declan is home from school for extended periods of time (like in the summer or even March break), the only time I get a break from him (and parenting) is when I go out gaming. Sure, I was gaming today, but I didn't go out to do it.
It meant, of course, that he was hanging around the small space I had carved out for myself to do this today, making comments and just generally being an interested kid. I don't fault him for wanting to be included, but it does make it a lot harder for me to get that separation between Gamer and Parent. (Paul was little to no help, focusing on this music tagging project that he's now stuck in because taking the kid outside to the park was a bit beyond his capabilities or some shit.)
I don't have a lot of places that I can access a plug for the laptop AND the internet here. I think I've found all of two. I can't go anywhere there is a plug and the internet and PRIVACY. Or, at least, a door that I can partially shut to get the illusion of privacy. The best I can manage is rearranging furniture and getting set up where I do my sewing. At least it's near a window? *pathetic shrug*
I don't think this is tenable for me, but I also don't want to disappoint or upset anyone because I can't suck it up. I have a week to try to figure something else out. Somehow, I don't feel like I'm going to be terribly successful.
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