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[valkryor]

I am no longer a fan of the end of July. Last night, I got hit by the doldrums something fierce. I don't like the doldrums; it's a combination of feeling adrift and restless, topped with a pinch of apathy.

But missing people fiercely, especially when it's one day after another, makes it hard to escape. It is, apparently, how I grieve, or at least a small part of how I grieve.

So, to Gus the Big Mean Bunny and to Shannon, I miss you and think about you often. I cannot believe how much time has passed by and how much this still hurts. My life was richer for having you in it, but I wanted more time, more growing old and growing up, more bad puns and more being your mom.

And more birthdays. So many more birthdays.

Comments

[cinnamaldehyde]

*hugs*

It's important to recognize how you grieve, and give yourself the space to do so.

Thank you for sharing the remembrance of the day. I'm listening.

[valkryor]

*hugs*

[theycallmebeth]

I am so sorry. I hope you're taking it easy on yourself right now. That's a lot of anniversaries at the same time and a lot of mourning and a lot of pain to handle.

I really hope you're being gentle with yourself. That edge of restlessness and feeling adrift can make it really hard, but I hope you find a way. Big hugs to you.

[valkryor]

Thanks. It wasn't too bad this year, but some years it is pretty hard. *hugs*