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[valkryor]

I'm losing a battle I didn't even know I was fighting.

My sense of self is being absorbed slowly by "mother" and "housewife". For reasons that I couldn't explain if I tried, the German word "hausfrau" seems to combine the two ideas in my head. I look surprisingly like a hausfrau these days (minus the badly fitting print dress, although I'm sure I could find one or two if I tried) and I'm starting to feel that that's my only role in life.

I don't know how to save myself. I don't even know if it's worth the effort to even try.

Gah. I hate self-pity, but I really don't know what to do.

Comments

[epi-lj.livejournal.com]

Perhaps reinvention is more practical than preservation at this point?

[valkryor.livejournal.com]

That has...possibilities. And at this very moment, is more appealing than preservation. Hmmm...I will have to think on this. I'm still not sure what path to take...although I may just have to forge my own.

[clawfoot.livejournal.com]

Keep writing! (I know, easier said than done.)

[valkryor.livejournal.com]

Much easier said than done. But still doable. Once I finish the whole "comic catalogue of aught five", I should have some time...