Part of me wants to cry, but I have nothing. My heart hurts, though. An incredible loss like a black hole that sucks everything else in as it grows and threatens to consume all of me. Fuck.
I wish I had anything more positive to say, but time is what heals it. When my father went...I blew off a year of school, in a weird way (I actually went to class, and did my homework, and got decent grades). Anything to not let people see how much it hurt and how hard it was, anything to keep them from bringing it up again and again and again. Now...this year, finally, 24 years later, I think I can face the day, and probably won't cry through most of it. That's a lot better than it used to be.
Wanna come over and play some Settlers of Catan this week some night? Maybe Thursday? It's okay if you can't, but we'd love to have you come to visit some time soon, alright? We'll play some games, and talk about something else, anything else.
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Date: 2005-08-02 12:53 am (UTC)Wanna come over and play some Settlers of Catan this week some night? Maybe Thursday? It's okay if you can't, but we'd love to have you come to visit some time soon, alright? We'll play some games, and talk about something else, anything else.
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Date: 2005-08-02 01:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-02 01:34 am (UTC)Take care of yourself. And know that I'm here whenever you want/need to escape.
Minigolf. Bowling. Silly games. A night of hair-dye and chick flicks. Whatever.
*hugs*
Date: 2005-08-02 03:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-02 03:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-02 08:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-02 02:53 pm (UTC)Like most people, words are a failing.
Love you guys though, will see you tonight.
btw
Date: 2005-08-03 04:32 am (UTC)Re: btw
Date: 2005-08-03 04:35 am (UTC)See I was in the process of doing the same thing.
Great minds think alike :)