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valkryorI'm having a hard time getting anything started lately. It seems my ambition to get things done is losing out to apathy. I have some cleaning that needs doing and plants that are going to start dying of thirst, but I can't be bothered, even though it will only take about 2 hours to do it.
This is part of the struggle to get my life back. I know those on my flist are incredibly supportive, but, for the most part, I have to want to do this for myself and my husband. Apathy is hard to deal with. You know what you want to do, but you just don't care.
It's a little like the voting public in this country, in some ways: you already know that the Liberals are going to win, so why bother going to the polls to try to change it. But it's self-defeatist. The Liberals only win because so little of the voting public does go out to cast their ballot.
Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I'm letting myself get defeated before I've tried to do anything. Maybe, instead of saying, "but a thousand steps is too much", I should say, "it's only one step. I can do that."
This is part of the struggle to get my life back. I know those on my flist are incredibly supportive, but, for the most part, I have to want to do this for myself and my husband. Apathy is hard to deal with. You know what you want to do, but you just don't care.
It's a little like the voting public in this country, in some ways: you already know that the Liberals are going to win, so why bother going to the polls to try to change it. But it's self-defeatist. The Liberals only win because so little of the voting public does go out to cast their ballot.
Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I'm letting myself get defeated before I've tried to do anything. Maybe, instead of saying, "but a thousand steps is too much", I should say, "it's only one step. I can do that."
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