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I'm still not very motivated to look for work. Meh. Maybe I should just call this week a write off and leave it at that. Still no call from the Evil Cable Company, either. But, for some reason, this doesn't bother me as much as it should. I know I'm still unemployed with absolutely nothing coming in, but I'm healthy and I know that fuzzpsych loves me.

Am I happy, though?

No. Although there are glimmers of happiness, the wound is still too fresh and I spent a lot of yesterday weeping. I'm more emotionally stable, but it's tenuous, like ice on a pond in March...you just never know how thick it is until you try to stand on it. It's only been five weeks and the sting of the experience can be very strong sometimes.

We had an offer last night to go to meowster's cottage for the weekend. It would be nice to get away, and yet, after six weeks in Toronto on an emotional rollercoaster only to be suddenly thrown off, I'd rather stay home and coccoon. fuzzpsych wants to go and that's fine. He can. But I just don't feel up to it at the moment.

I've also been adding some new people to my flist. One (athena_51, a fellow graduate of the UW Classics Programme) added me and is a "friend of a friend" and two others (snowy_kathryn and zero_design), I had the pleasure of meeting at the last two goth nights at Ren and who just happen to be new to the area. So welcome to you all.

I feel better today. I dunno. I guess I just needed to get the ick out by letting others know that I was feeling bad.

Thank you to clawfoot, lovecraftienne, the_daily_rant, robertom for the kind words, and also to joncanuck and meowster for being on Messenger when I needed someone to be there. Damned near everything about this entire experience is a great big bowl of ass sucking cherry pits and being in limbo only emphasizes the bad bits.

So. Um. Yeah. Thanks and all that. :)

I'm so stressed out my eczema is coming back on my left pinkie. Just what I need. :P

And until the wee one is in hospital, no movies for us. Sorry about that, clawfoot. :( But if you want to stop by and hang out or something, that can happen. Just give us a call.

In other (and probably more important) news, Shannon rolled over for the first time yesterday. It seems like she's late, but if she's anything like my sister, she's doing things in her own sweet time. :)

So last night I found the perfect way to go through nearly an entire kilo of icing sugar...three pans of nanaimo bars! I made the peanut butter ones with natural peanut butter (ie. just peanuts), so I'm hoping that they taste okay.

Today was the KW Symphony Sale. Got up after only four hours (!) of sleep and went to look at other people's crap. We took the baby. It would have been marginally easier for me to have the stroller instead of the snugli, but we made out okay, just the same. fuzzpsych struck out again, while meowster made out like a bandit! I found some neat stuff (Harry Potter 2 & 3 in hardcover), a nifty liquid measuring cup (looks like the ones that Alton Brown uses on Good Eats), the very first Dungeons and Dragons Basic Set in a box with dice (that one was more for the geek in me...it is, though, in fantastic shape) and a really interesting Development of Writing teacher's guide thing. It has a lovely picture of the rosetta stone and a few other odds and sods that make it an interesting piece. The whole lot cost $5.50, so I can't complain. :)

My uncle Paul, though, he found the prize. Two bowls, basic white dinner ware and obviously well used. Cost a whole quarter for both. The mark on the back was in German and had a swastika! It was Third Reich issue and graced someone's table at one point. The staff of volunteers never looked at the back. So what he bought for a pittance is going to be sold on eBay for whatever the last bidder is willing to pay.

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