when dreaming ends.

[valkryor]

I'm so very tempted to give up writing completely. Go work in a factory somewhere and just give it up. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy doing it and I would love nothing more than to eke a meager existence out of it, but right now that doesn't seem very practical.

The baby takes a lot out of me. So much that it feels like there's nothing left...no motivation, no drive, no creativity...nothing.

It looks like it's back to the phones when MatLeave is done. Oh well. It was a nice dream.

Comments

[robertom.livejournal.com]

don't you fucking dare or i will kick your ass. she will take alot out of you, writing will be hard, a namo will be three months for you instead of one. so what. you have ideas, talent, creativity. use them.

[fuzzpsych.livejournal.com]

Thank you for that. You said it in way that I couldn't. So, yeah, what he said, but in a nicer, husbandly way. I love you, and know you can do this. You just have to keep plugging at it.

[robertom.livejournal.com]

well, you all know i love you both and, well, there it is. i'll believe in you if you don't valkryor

that's the depression talking, hon

[meowster.livejournal.com]

that's what it does. it takes the drive right out of you. it makes you hate the things that used to give you life.

you are very talented and even if you write only for yourself - you need to keep at it. whether you keep a journal of poetry, random nothings or write a book. don't let the darkness win. there *is* light at the end of the tunnel. sometimes it is just too hard to see.

don't be too hard on yourself if you need to take a break from writing. every good writer needs to step back and take a moment to breathe now and then.

[joncanuck]

I would have to agree with what people have written, even when you are feeling your lowest creativity wise, you still write circles around most people.

It's understandable everything you are going through will take a lot out of you, but you have a phenomenal talent.

You have a wonderful imagination, even if you feel it's out of reach right now. Things *will* get better, it will just take time, just let things happen at their own pace. Don't stress yourself even more by trying to force things

*HUGS*

[clawfoot.livejournal.com]

I shall echo all the others: don't you dare quit! I've got files and files and files full of stuff you wrote (mostly stuff for game), and it's all good. You ARE a good writer.

Nobody else can write a 36-page character history that I'd bother to read, you know.

[twilightrabbit.livejournal.com]

I stopped writing for several months last year and it was a damn good sign their was something psychologically wrong with me. Not one scrap of paper, not one poem, just infrequent rants.
I understand you're drained by the loud, little one; and a break from it is okay. Don't give up on the dream, that's what makes us human. If you give up on it, you'll become a machine. I fear the day that a good soul like yours is lost to the darkness of permanent writer's block.
Months, years, they're okay and relatively short when you look at a lifetime. Take the break you need to.
But don't give up. You know you'll miss it, you miss it already.
And I'll wait, however long it takes, to read your next piece.